One's Own Journey

I stare into your eye's only wishing to be
The man that you want but I'm unable to see
Unable to see how you really felt
As you stood by screaming for help
Only seeing the surface an not the cracks
You held me tight an I fell through the gaps
An though so close it seems so far
Now we now who we really are
Both have limits an both have pains
An though I'm crazy I'm not insane
An still my memories will continue to fade
But still I'll dream unafraid
An for all the suffering my heart keeps
It is your smile that brings it peace
I tell you now I'm surrounded by pain
Surrounded by loss followed by shame
But if you could give me a reason to be
I will hold you tight an you will be free
For even though I have not much to give
It is my love not many may live