A Watchful Eye

I miss you friend whose looking down
Keeping watch on loves well found
I close my eyes to behold your face
Still shedding tears, please soothe this hate
My prayers to you are all thats left
A world now gray without your breath
I miss you mat and all we had
How is my father, is he still sad?
The path I took lead me astray
Please forgive me now and guide my way
My love for you was always there
I tried my best, please know I care
My fallen brother for which I weep
Am I a coward and deserve no peace?
With all I am, I hope you know
My love for you shall always grow
An down the road when I meet my end
I will search for you and brace my friend

I miss you Mat, love Andrew

Heartbeat Rising

I still see that fading shimmer when I look unto your eyes
The wanting of forgetting of my darkened hurtful lies
Remembering of our past and unsure of whats to be
Has left you in a crossroad, I can see the pain you keep
Please know that I am trying and understand why I must wait
I know you are not certain because of my mistakes
I'm sure that I'm still hurting you and should probably walk away
But understand I cannot for my heart still has some faith
At night I lay here dreaming an your all thats on my mind
I promise if you'll trust me no other's love could be like mine
I have shown you who I am, still paying back on my mistakes
I hope you see me truly an find a risk that you should take
An if ever you should kiss me I will take you by the hand
Press it to my heartbeat and hope you'll understand
For my heartbeat seems to rise up then settle to a pause
For this is why I'm human, I'm sorry for my flaws